Lumos Flies

So, after that last post, I walked out of class and saw that Macey was waiting for me at the end of the hall. I said nothing. I couldn't. I was stunned, and that little anger in the back of my head that I suppress when I'm not around her flared up.

I said nothing. I just walked to the stairs. So did she. We sorta walked together. But not really. Instead of walking beside her, like normal, I walked behind her. And, instead of hanging out with her and my friend Brittany before I go to Sociology, I walked around and told Brittany I'd see her tomorrow.

And today, I spoke not to her during Psychology. Probably the hardest things I've done in a long time.

I'm not kidding.

I know, I know. I'm only sixteen. That almost nothing about who I am will be the same in ten years, or even five.

But I honestly can't picture my life without this girl.

I have no idea how I"m still doing this.

I really, really just wanna go and get sopping drunk tonight.